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Wish I could....-_-
But if you can. Just vote.
DO IT!

So, despite being sick all damn day and at home as well. My day has been good. My gram and I just kinda chilled and talked for awhile which was nice. She's the only person (at home) that I can really confide in when it comes to my mother and the family shit that's going on. She understands me and agrees with me and knows what I am talking about which makes me feel better. So now I know it's not just me. But my sister also feels the same way, so pretty much my house is in two teams: mom and dad VS gram, sister, and me. My brother doesn't count cuz well....he's not here anymore.

Speaking of my brother!!! This is soooo gross!!!! Dx
He was walking home from the bank about two days ago and heard this sickening thud behind him. He turns around. There's a guy laying on the ground behind him. His head smashed because he just jumped off the top of the parking lot at Maine Medical Center......GAH!!! I woulda screamed like the little girl I am!!!! Dx Ewwww just thinking about it makes my tummy turn.

MOVING ON!!!!!!

Friday night with Harper, Hayden and Joanna was fun! Especially the tarot card reading. She told me that my cards say, I know what I want, and I know how to attain it. And I really DO know what I want. However, attaining what I want.....may or may not happen. Like....I know how I can attain it, it's just a matter of if I really want to go about attaining it in that way. Which, I don't. I am a really determined person though....so I know I can. =P

Anyway, leaving that subject.

I talked to my ex-boyfriend on the phone today. I wish I could help him more than I have been. It would be easier if I saw him more often. I just want him to be happy, thats all I really want for him. Is for him to be happy. He's a great guy, really he is. He said he'd come visit me soon, so that's good. ^-^ I can't wait! We always have fun whenever we hang out together. And who knows, maybe Mike and Chad will come as well. When its me Andy, Mike, and Chad....dayum, better not get in our way hahahaha we cause chaos all over town hahahah it's pretty awesome. I love those guys.

So, for me so far....life is pretty dandy. I don't really have any real major complaints. Only on occassions....but then again everyone does that hahaha sooo I'm all good. =D


Love you all!!!

♥

Well today I haven't been in school. In case you didn't notice. I was home sick all day. Which is always fun......not. But yeah.....I felt miserable all last night and today I felt somewhat better. But as of right now I feel fine. Still have a sore throat....but other than that I should be fine. ^-^ So I should be in school tomorrow.

Anywhoo, homecoming was okay. Not exactly something I'd want to do over or anything.....so I think I may skip out on the other dances minus Prom. So yeah, I guess that speaks for itself......It was definitely fun at the slow songs being the kid leaning against the wall with a few other girls haha yeah.....middle school much? Definitely not doing that again. OR I will bring a date next time. So yeah, all in all.....it was okay.

Well I love you all and miss you all!!!!

♥

Edit:
I feel kinda lonely.....I hate being sick.

u.u

SO!
I went to the Spirit Halloween with Beth this Friday. Got my Homecoming/Halloween dress/costume there hahaha ANYWAY!!!! You'll NEVER guess who I saw there!!!! MR. GIRARD!!!!!!!! xDDDDD I know, creepy lawl. I kinda avoided him since I was so sketched out. He was with his little russian kid....wife no where to be found. O.O Anywhoo yeah it was interesting. And yes, my homecoming dress IS a dead tinkerbell costume lawl just.....minus the wings

xD

Oh!
To all those who read Loveless and or care haha
The 8th Loveless manga FINALLY came out!!! And yes, yes I does haves it in my possession. And yes, I read it that night. Is vry vry good. BUT.....now I again has to wait for teh 9th one.....they don't even give you an estimate of when that one will come out.....

Today when on mah break at work. I saw Harper's dad! He told me Harper and Emma headed down the way towards Sears.....but I didn't find them....=[  I MISS YOU HARPER!!!! T.T Don't get me wrong!!! I miss all mah friends over teh weekend....I just haven't seen Harper in lyke forever!!! I miss j00!!!!

Anywhoo I am running out of things to say and or ramble about lawl
SO!
I luff you all!!!!
BAI!!!!!

I wish she cared.....
It kinda hurts to find things out about the people you love. When you never thought of them in that way, and you see and expierience it first-hand....it's kinda like a stab to the heart or a slap in the face. I'd just like to know why she does this....But I'll get over it. I guess it could be worse. Onto other news, I've grown really uncomfortable with some things that people have been saying lately.....and it's not just a petty thing, or once or twice, but constant. So, instead of just sitting here. I've decided to take action and speak up about it to Guidance. I kinda feel like a tattle-tale, but if it makes you really uncomfortable to hear these things constantly, shouldn't you tell someone about it? And not just your friends, because they can't really do anything to make it stop, because why would that person stop because your friends told them to? So yeah, I am going to talk to Guidance tomorrow about it.

Well, the kittens and Missy are all gone now. Off to be adopted, hopefully yo good homes. I like to keep them in my prayers during Religion class. For some reason it just makes me feel better if I do. Anyway, today after school Beth and I walked around the Boulavard and chatted the entire time. It was alot of fun, exercise, talking, and planning out our weekend plans. So all in all it was fun, it also makes you feel better just knowing you walked 3 and 1/2 miles. So yes, funfun!

I have a good feeling about Senior year, minus the suckish Freshman, it should be an overall really good (and short) year. I just hope the people that have been overly emo and suicidal lately cut it out. Because for me, it kinda sucks to be having a good day then the emo and suicidal kids come and kinda slaughter your good mood with their suckish moods. But! I am getting to look beyond them (and as terrible as this sounds, ignore them), because who wants to be in a bad mood? I don't! So I am going to make an extra effort to stay in my good mood. ^-^

Haha sorry this was so long. And sorry if this sounded like ranting. >.>
I luff you all!!!!

^-^


♥

Tomorrow the kittens go back to the shelter.
I don't want them to go!!!!!
I've grown so attached to them, why do they have to go?
I wish I could keep them all.
People may think it's silly to cry right now about it.
But if you were there when they were born then you had to give them up, you would too.
It just isn't fair!!!!!
I'm gonna miss them so much!
So forgive me if I cry tomorrow....because when I leave for school.....I come home.....
And I know I will never ever see them again

So this is my last night with Pumpkin, Euri, Bella, Fiona, Serendiptiy, Bonnie, Clyde, and Missy.
I wish it wasn't, I wish to god it wasn't.
I know, they're just cats......
But I've gotten so attached to them.
What am I gonna do?
When I come home there won't be 7 little kittens to run around me and chase my feet.
They won't be there to cuddle and hug when I've had the worst day.
Or just to cuddle because they like to.
They are gonna be gone, and who do they go to?
What if they don't get a good home?
I won't get to see them grow up........

Now I know I definitely can't have kids......
I'm a wreck just giving away kittens......
I wish we could keep them.

T.T